my journey

ALL for YOU

2009-06-12T13:22:00.004+07:00

Di hatiku terukir namaMu
dan kesetiaanMu mengalir dalamku
Harapanku hanyalah janjiMu
genggam s'gnap hidupku erat di hatiMu

Chorus:
Ini hatiku smuanya milikMu
Setiap nafasku nyatakan kasihMu
Biarkanlah rohMu, memeluk hatiku,
terangi langkahku,kuhidup untukMu

This is a little promise from my heart unto You, my beloved Savior and God..

I want to live my whole life just for You and All for You..Even it's hard, i believe i can do it all coz i have You in my heart, my mind, and my life..As my life in Yours..

Luv u JC :)

2009-04-16T11:05:00.003+07:00

Recently i'm kinda feel bored 'bout my life..it seems that my life is walking in the same place or it just walks over and over again in the same path..i just don't know what to do now..everything look so blur and heavy for me..

just wanna take some long holiday to have fun with myself..it looks all what i have now just like a routinity and i really hate that..my job, my life, my service, everything of it..

however i also think and afraid that the holiday i would like to take also make me bored as well as my life now..

so what am i supposed to do now?? just keep silent or what??

30 tHiNgs thAt mAkeS GiRLz SMiLe

2009-02-15T07:51:00.001+07:00

1. Don't hug her friends or your friends that are girls cause she'll feel left out.

2. Hold her hand at any moment . . . even if it's just for a second.

3. Hug her from behind.

4. Leave her voice messages to wake up.

5. Wrestle with her.

6. Don't go hang out with your ex when shes not with you, you might not realize how badly it hurts her.

7. If you're talking to another girl, when you're done talking, walk over and hug her and kiss her.... let her know she's yours and they aren't.

8. Write her notes or call her just to say "hi"..and not just at night after you've already been out with other girls.

9. Introduce her to your friends . . . as your girlfriend.

10. Play with her hair.

11. Pick her up

12. Get upset if another guy touches her and she doesn't like it.

13. Make her laugh, if you can make her laugh, you can make her do anything.

14. Let her fall asleep in your arms.

15. If she's mad at you, kiss her.

16. If you care about her, then tell her.

17. Every guy should give their girl 3 things: a stuffed animal(she'll hug it every time she goes to sleep), jewelry (she'll treasure it forever), and one of his t-shirts (she'll most likely wear it to bed).

18. Treat her the same around your friends as you do when you're alone.

19. Look her in the eyes and smile.

20. Hang out with her on weekends.

21. Kiss her in the rain.

22. If your listening to music, let her listen too.

23. Remember her birthday and get her something, even if it's simple and inexpensive, it came from YOU. it means all the world to HER. it's the thought that counts.

24. When she gives you a present on your birthday, or just whenever, take it and tell her you love it, even if you don't (it'll make her happy.)

25. Girl don't necessarily have to have hour-long conversations every night, but it's nice for them to hear your voice even for a quick hello.

26. Give her what she wants

27. Recognize the small things . . . they usually mean the most.

28. Tell her she's beautiful, she needs to know her striving is working.

29. Hang out with her whenever you are free and u should be free to hang with your girlfriend all the time

30. If u care about her...SHOW it!

What is going on ?

2009-02-03T11:25:00.005+07:00

Honestly, i'm totally not in a good mood working today..There're some problems and crash in the office which is caused by trouble-makers and losers in my team..
Everything just start in previous days when someone, called Y, made "trouble" by inviting newbies to follow her step and also provoking some other about the lackness in the company..Well congratulations to her for her plan is working well..She also invite the newbies to rebell to the leader (in a very smooth way :D)..

And the peak is in the morning and still keep raising until now on..Those incidents really makes me lose my feel to work..After my team-manager ask one of us to go out from the company (= fired her), and they leave the office for business matter..The rebellers start to show their actions..One by one it seems that almost all team members get the attacks.

However, not so long after, the team-manager and also branch manager comes back to the office after meeting client. And then they start to fix everything which are ruined by the losers. They also hold meeting in instant to talk about this matter as well and the business we do.

Although the matter is already clear by the moment, still the bad feeling which is caused by early incidents still stay in my mind..Hope after i talk to my close fella, i can feel a lot better and it's true..I'm talking with her by now and it seems all my burden from the office is fade away..

BoYz ReVeaLEd!!! Important both for GirLz n BoYz :)

2009-01-19T12:08:00.003+07:00

What we always hear is Girls Rulez, now is the time for boys to show what is actually in our heart.

This is the story from our side, BOYZZ, MALE, MAN, Our Rules!!!

fyi, yellow fonts on this side are my personal opinion :)

1. Not all boys are like David Copperfield.

So do not expect we can read what is in your mind when you seal your lips tightly. Is it so difficult to say: "I am hungry, I want you to buy me clothes, Please flirt me...!!!"

You may do it occasionally if you want because not at all times, I, can understand want you want by reading your sign or body language..

2. Sunday is the time for rest after 6 days working, so do not expect us to accompany full-day-walking in mall.

If you require me to understand you, please understand me as well :) Working in six days are very tiring and i need a rest. I need to face another 6-days-working again tomorrow. Hanging out for awhile will be just fine. So please cooperate.

3. Shopping is NOT sport. And we will not ever think that way.

For us shopping is shopping, if it is suited you. Just buy it then. The price differences between shop A and B is only 1.000 rupiahs so do not need to walk around the city to find the cheaper one. Just waste the fuel.

Completely agree with this one. Personally i do not really like bargaining. If i like the stuff and the price is suited me, then it is a DEAL.

4. Crying is an extortion.

Better for us to hear sounds of thunder, explosive bomb than your crying that makes us can do nothing.

No comment for this one. Sometimes Girls are crying just because they want to cry. They only want to show their feeling. However boyz think that they want solution(s) for their problem. Personally i used to be like that too. Now i try to understand what you actually want and mean by your cry.

5. Ask what you want from us. Try to be one accord about this.

Soft satire will not be understandable.

Hard satire wil not be undertandable.

Satirize plainly will not be understandable as well for us.

Why don't just speak up directly?

Speak up directly is better if you really want me to be and to do as you wish. Use satire or body language, or whatever it names if you expect misunderstanding from me (sometimes i can understand well what you mean and sometimes not - so please don't judge me if i fail to do so one day ).

6. Yes and No are most acceptable answers for most questions. It’s Simple.!!

Completely agree. If you want to tell stories, will be just fine actually for me. I do not mind to hear your stories. If i am busy at that time, i'll give you my free schedule for you. I am willingly not to have enough rest or taking care my own business for you. Just please remember about the time and please cooperate with this one :)

7. Tell us if you want your problems to be solved. Because that's what we do.

If you only want sympathy, just tell to your girls' friend.

If you need sympathy, you can tell your story, burden, mind, heart, and whatever you want to me :). As long as i am free, i will gladly help you. If i am not free, i will try my best to have free time for you.
(The last sentence is only for special persons to me.)

8. Headache for 17 months is a sickness. Go to the doctor!

Honestly i do not really understand with no.8. Maybe if you have any sickness, just go to the doctor. i'll take you there gladly. do not just keep it by yourself and keep saying that you are ok, which is actually not. The doctor won't kill you. Trust me!

9. All we've said in the last 6 months cannot be taken literally as an argument. Actually all our comments are expired and void after 7 days.

Out promise to cross the sea or hike the mountain are just a klise. Do not take it too serious..

Even sometimes my words are sound klise as well, but i mean it. I hate lying or hyperboling something. If i say i'll be with u and be there for you whenever u need me. Just trust me that i'll do so till death do us apart!

10. If you do not want to wear "under-wear-style" shirt, do not expect us like opera soap artists.

Please girl, just don't wear that kind of shirt, ok!

11. If you think you are fat, that is possible. Do not ask us please.

Mirror is more honest that man.

If you want my personal opinion about it, just ask me. Do not hesitate. I'll tell you the truth, so please do not mad at me :) I'll try my best to tell you in the best way so it won't hurt you:)

12. You may ask us to do something or tell us to finish it as you wish. But please not both. If you think you can do it better, just do it yourself.

Just tell me what you want me to do, i'll gladly help you. If you want me to do in tour way, give me reasons why you want me to do in your way. Trust me that i know what i am doing, i f i lost my way, i'll ask then :)

13. If possible, talk when ads spot is on.

Remember, do not even talk when penalty-kick time.

Luckily i do not belong to this group coz i'm not a soocer fans. I have another hobby. But still if you need me, i'll gladly put off "my hobbies" for you. This is valid only for special persons to me.

14. We are not a child anymore, so do not need to remind us to eat, take a rest, etc. In our opinion, it's just wasting the credits.

I know that's the way you care of me, so it's fine with me. Thanks :)

15. If you are itchy, you can scrape/scratch (p.s. sorry dun know what the suitable one :)) by yourself. We do so.

Hahahahaha.. if this is the way you want to spoil with me, it will be fine. Just don't do it too often, ok :)

16. If we ask what's going on and you say nothing, we will think that there is nothing. Remember as in no.1 that we are not mind-reader.

Speak up baby...speak up...!!!

Even if you say nothing, but i know there is something. I'll keep asking you until certain limit. I will never force you if you do not want to tell me. At least if you tell me, i can do something for you, just to help you.

17. If we need to hang out altogether to certain place, whatever you wear, will be just fine. For sure, there is no reason for not going to a party because there is no dress to wear.

Completely agree!!! What ever you wear will be just fine with me. I love/like/befriend with you because not what you wear or what my eyes see. I love/like/befriend with you just the way you are. But please wear a good dress (good means polite). You can ask my opinion if you like as well. Do not wear "less-cloth-dress":)

18. Do not ask what we think unless you want to discuss about soccer, game, pool game, fishing, or maybe how to repair a car.

Actually what in boyz' mind are not only that. There are many more. The point is if you ask what is in my mind, mostly are about God, my family, You, books i like, games i like, and others i like :)

19. We do not like to debate heartly and involves feeling. Remember!!! We use logic only.

Even most of the times i use my logic, if you need to involve heart and feeling in our talk. I still can do it well. You know why?? Coz i care of you :)

20. Thanks for reading it. Okay i'll sleep in the couch tonight.

Honestly i do not undestand what the second sentence mean. Thanks girl for understanding me. I will try my best to understan you as well.

Soundz of My Heart part 2 (still at work :D)

2009-01-12T22:51:00.004+07:00

This morning, i told my manager about what i actually feel about this work after being there for about 1 week. I told him everything about my "problems" in this work, and he gave way out and ask me to try again. However, i still don't get the FEEL yet.

He also asked me about my prospecting that i was supposed to do on the previous weekend. Actually i can just lie to him and said that everything are just fine, but God told me loudly in my heart that i have to be honest. I must have different life style from those who don't belong as the Citizen of Heaven, the children of God. After i said the truth, he just smile and said that's ok.

Tomorrow, i will meet him again and tell him and i still don't get the FEEL here. I know that work in such a place can give me so much money. But..what for if i have s much money if i don't have HIM in my heart and my life. I believe God's blessings are different to one another according to each capabilities. It's so much better for me if i just live accordingly and have HIM enthrones in my heart and lead me, than have everything, every precious things in the world, but i lose HIM.

LORD, be the KING in my heart and lead my to walk always in Your path.
Here i am Lord, my life is Yours forever. Let it be done upon me as Your will because i believe that everything from You is the best thing for me.

Psalm 1:1-3
1:1 Happy are those who reject the advice of evil men, who do not follow the example of sinners or join those who have no use for God.
1:2 Instead, they find joy in obeying the Law of the LORD, and they study it day and night.
1:3 They are like trees that grow beside a stream, that bear fruit at the right time, and whose leaves do not dry up. They succeed in everything they do.

I love You forever my JC..\\(^.^)//

HE is a FAITHFUL GOD

2009-01-12T22:10:00.004+07:00

Kaulah Tuhan yang berjanji
Tak sekalipun Kau ingkari
KesetiaanMu sungguh terbukti
Di sepanjang hidupku...
Tuk s'lamanya, ku kan setia
Melayani mengasihiMu
Tiada Tuhan, sepertiMu Yesus
Kau Allahku yang setia

Yesterday at church, i really felt God's love upon me. He reminds me that HE is a FAITHFUL GOD. As i mention in the previous post that I'm working by the moment. However until today i don't get the feel at all. So it just like working as a routine, and personally i don't like that. What for i do work for something i do not like to do.

Honestly, the reason i'm looking for work this fast even before i graduate is I'm thinking about my future. Now, i've done my study, then I need to work, so when i have a family, i can feed them and make them happy. It doesn't make sense at all if i still ask money from my parents or parents-in-law to feed my spouse and children at that time.

The biggest mistake i make is i don't ask God first when i started to search for some job vacancies. I don't ask HIM at which field and place i should work on. Now i realize my mistake and ask forgiven from HIM.

Start from now on, i want to involve God in everything i do, even it is just the simplest things.
Lord, give me a heart to love You more and depend more on You in what ever time, place, or occasion.

Soundz of My Heart part 1 (at work)

2009-01-08T09:41:00.002+07:00

I have finished my study in university and now i start working. I'm working in a Futures Company by the moment..Actually at first i didn't know that i am going to work in such a place. I just found an job vacancy in the internet and yach i just try to apply..Never expected to get the call, interview, and training as well this fast.

My work deals with customers and i am obligated to find new clients..Honestly i am not kind of person who like s to build new relationship with so many people. I prefer just work behind the table. I am not sure until how long i can stand still in this company. I also don't have that so many data base of names that i can contact. Well maybe dealing with current clients is just ok with me, the problem is finding the new clients..

Actually i have a dream to work as an Export-Import Staff or in HRD or in RD..i wish those dreams can come true soon.

Sometimes i think that God must have plans why i work in this kind of place. It is totally out of my comfort zone (or out of my ability)..But is it truly God ways for me? Or perhaps God has something better for me after i graduated from my university? (fyi, i've done my final exam and i did pass. yet, i'm still working on revising the thesis and will be graduated next March)..

What i am supposed to do now, i don't really know..God helps me to find Your ways..This is my life and i surrender all to you.

The God I Know

2009-01-04T19:04:00.004+07:00

This song is a wonderful song that has touched my heart in a special way. I listened this song for the first time when my pastor sang it in closing-year service on last December 31..

Here are the lyric and i hope this song can be a bless for you..

^^The God I Know^^

When the stage is bare tonight
There’s no one else
Just You and me
When the curtains close behind
There’s no pretense
I’m on my knees

I will lay down my life
For the love sacrifice
You gave to me
It’s all because of You
All because of You

The God I know
Righteous and Holy
The God I know
Faithful and true
The God I know
My tower of refuge
Hearts are healed
Christ revealed

The God I know
Light of the City
The God I know
Strengthens the weak
The God I know
Your heart beats within me
As You are, so are we

This is my cry
My one desire
More of You
More of You

The church He knows
Righteous and Holy
The church He knows
Is faithful and true
The church He knows
A tower of refuge
Hearts are healed
Christ revealed

The church He knows
Light of this city
The church He knows
Strengthens the weak
The church He knows
Is strong and mighty
As He is, so are we

NeW ComeRzz - NeW beGinNinG

2009-01-04T16:36:00.002+07:00

Hi all..this is my first post in my first official blog (coz i also have the unofficial one :D)..

Glad i can write what ever in my mind and let all you know it..
I hope my writings can be a blessing for all of you..

and then my journey starts.............................................